Sunset at North Stradbroke Island
Posted by: gypsydownunder | July 15, 2013
A new beginning
Posted in Uncategorized | Tags: Australia, breakup, community, family, farewell, journey, North Stradbroke island, relationship, self discovery, south america, travel, world
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Four months ago I said farewell to my boyfriend of ten years, my two wonderful step-children, the warm community and climate of beautiful North Stradbroke island and to my kind and caring parents and siblings. This was the hardest decision I ever made in my life. I felt enormous support from all of the above mentioned even though it was and still continues to be difficult for my ex. It is still difficult for me but I was unhappy and stagnant not only in my relationship with my boyfriend but also within my community. I needed to move. Staying in the one place for long periods of time doesn’t suit me. I wanted new sensations to breathe life back into me. I also needed to get away from the repression of my boyfriend and rebuild my self confidence and esteem. I had hoped for ten years that things would change. I’d spent the last two years toying with the idea of leaving. After observing my situation, the depth of my unhappiness and the absence of improvement, I decided to go. On New Year’s Day I broke it to my boyfriend. Man……that was painful and took all the strength I had to keep my resolve. Yet within two weeks I booked my round the world ticket, gave my employers notice and informed the kids, my family and my friends. I continued to live with my boyfriend and his teenage children for the next nine weeks. This was emotionally draining for us all but the love of my life wanted me to cohabitate right up until the day I left. This was convenient for me as it enabled me to work and save more while giving me plenty of time to pack all my things.
A week before I was due to fly to South America, I hired a car, packed it full with my possessions and drove 13 hours to my parent’s house in Mudgee, N.S.W. My 19 year old step daughter accompanied me.
I spent the last week spending time with my parents, siblings and beloved nephews and niece. By the end of the week I just wanted to go. I wanted to be alone. I didn’t even know what I felt, or how to feel. I just felt numb and I needed time out so I could process my breakup without the subjective opinions of all those who knew me well. I appreciated everyone’s support but I needed to support myself, love myself and feel strong in the decision I had made for myself, by myself. I didn’t even know who I was anymore. I put so much energy into my relationships and work that I’d lost the essence of me. My spirit had been buried and I knew it was time for me to dig it back out. This was the beginning of my journey, a new beginning for me .
By: gypsydownunder on July 15, 2013
at 2:52 pm
Good luck on your travels, where’s first!?!
By: willc88 on July 15, 2013
at 3:11 pm
I actually left four months ago and only just got it together to start this blog. I thought the first one should be introductory. I just spent one month in Chile, three months in Argentina and am currently in Berlin, Germany.
By: gypsydownunder on July 15, 2013
at 3:18 pm